Normally when I become more active writing blogs and then suddenly disappeared it has always been because I was either too lazy or too busy to keep up. Sadly that has not been the case for the last 2 months.
Back in April (hard to believe it has been that long), one of my shoulders was giving me a hard time. This has happened before and I usually resort, as I did this time, to just focusing on lower body work. I did a week of that and then one day I woke up and my knee was in excruciating pain. It hurt to walk, to sit, to stand…to function really.
I can talk until the cows come home about foot pain, shoulder pain, ankle pain, etc but I had never had any problems with my knees…EVER!
I thought maybe I just had some tissue buildup that I could work through with the foam roller and taking it easy.
Except…
It didn’t work. That entire next week I was in pain all the time and any movement aside from what I had to do was limited. When I realized it was getting better, I slowly started to sink into a mild depression.
I don’t consider myself the perkiest person in the world, but I am pretty positive, and very optimistic but if you take away the one of the most important things in my life…exercise and more importantly extreme exercise…I found out the hard way I sort of lose my way.
Two weeks of hanging low and sinking deeper into a slow depression, I finally snapped out of it and got back on the road to starting over. I reminded myself that I can still move, and I need to, even if slowly.
It has been a painful (literally and figuratively speaking) road. I went from PR’ing in some of my lifts and feeling good a few months ago, to literally being on the recumbent bike for 20mins before my knee couldn’t take it any more. Slowly I have been able to rehab the area and I am back to being able to do some more intense workouts. Still not squats or lunges, and getting down and up off the floor is still a challenging process.
I realized along the way I am used to having a little ache and working through it, instead of fixing it. This whole experience has made me go right back to the drawing board and take the time to fix some important movement patterns in my body that I had been ignoring.
It is humbling to not just take a step back but start back from scratch. Today was actually the first day I got done with a workout and didn’t feel like my knee was gonna freeze up on me and I thought what a perfect day to start blogging again.
I have had enough conversations with so many of you and hear all the time of the ‘glory days’ or pre-this or pre-that and now I kinda get it.
I am not one to spill my own beans but I wanted to share my experience because I know someone is either there or has been there. Starting over is tough, time consuming, humbling, and honestly depressing sometimes but if you don’t start back over you become stagnate and stop growing. It doesn’t matter if it’s fitness, family, relationships, weight, business, etc, it’s not healthy to stay in that place.
Starting back over may mean some big decisions and it may mean you have to put your adults underpants on but I promise you will be better because of it and you might actually surprise yourself when you get to the other side at how strong you really are!
Start back over!

